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Before, I used to be quite focused, but now I've let a lot of work pile up, and it's been dragging on until now. I don't even know what I'm doing every day, and I have a meeting coming up soon with a mountain of tasks that I can't complete in a short time. The day before yesterday and yesterday, I stayed up until 4 AM two nights in a row. Sigh, there's a saying: ""In the daytime, roam around freely, in the nighttime, burn the midnight oil and patch up the trousers.""
Usually, I spend a lot of time on gambling, both during work hours and after work. I haven't been doing well at work either; my work attitude isn't upright anymore. Of course, it's related to my mindset at work. A couple of days ago, I was chatting with a leader from another department, and he said, ""I feel like you're daydreaming every day! I have no idea what you're doing~~~ Sigh, let's not talk about how outstanding our previous work was, but it was definitely someone who worked diligently and conscientiously. The leaders also recognized our work.
Lately... no, not just recently, after getting into baccarat, I feel like I've become a different person. I don't know what I'm doing every day, I don't feel like doing my work, and I'm just focused on gambling. If not gambling, then I'm researching things related to gambling. It's giving me a headache.
Now, the consequences of not working for a long time are showing up. I can't do my job well, and I can't gamble well either. Sigh, how can I manage this?
Originally, I thought of ending the writing here, but thinking about it, the word count seems about right, and writing a bit more might make it more concise. So, let's summarize a few sins of gambling.
1. Wasting time
Before, every morning when I arrived at work, I used to dedicate 1-2 hours to studying, reading books and newspapers to recharge and improve. Now, every day when I arrive at work, I check the forums and websites, then I deposit money, and after that, I'm just...
2. Affecting energy
I spend too much time gambling every day; I think it's at least 5 hours or more. I don't have the energy to do other work; it's giving me a headache.
3. Affecting money perspective
There aren't many people on the forum I admire; there's one flight attendant, for example, who can consistently refrain from wagering the entire bankroll. I really admire that. Now, my situation is that I can't make big money, and I can't be bothered with small money either. When placing bets, I don't even blink, and I'm betting thousands to tens of thousands. The more I play, the bigger the bets get, it's really troublesome. I can only control myself to deposit less money; otherwise, I'd end up betting big. It's a mess. They say you need to control yourself, but even when I try, I can't control it.
4. Sinking deeper
I used to not play slot machines, but now I'm hooked on them too. After playing baccarat every day, I transfer $500 to $1000 to play slot machines. I'm betting big on slot machines too; I bet $10 a spin, and it's gone in a moment. Sigh, I'm really... sigh, I want to quit playing slot machines.
Sigh, there are too many downsides to gambling. It's better to stay away from it if you can. I've become addicted; I can't quit. I'm really sad... |
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