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Edited by Samiksha at 26-12-2023 12:41 PM
Once upon a time, I considered myself a somewhat humorous guy, and I generally kept my temper well under control. I rarely engaged in arguments with others and could smoothly shift topics when faced with controversial issues. Even in the face of sarcasm or mockery online, I maintained a calm mindset, not taking things too seriously.
Just when I thought I would be a person with a consistently good personality for my entire life, I discovered that everything was quietly changing. Gradually, I began to care about how others perceived me, feeling distressed by some misunderstandings. I started paying attention to online criticisms, becoming angry at pointed remarks. Life seemed to grow increasingly exhausting, and I couldn't help but have a subtle urge to go on strike.
I must admit, my temper is worsening. When I realized this, my first thought was about gambling. I questioned myself: "Did gambling trigger the dark side of human nature, causing my negative energy to surge? Making my temper worse? Adding to my troubles?"
After careful consideration, my conclusion was— not really.
Now, when I see some trolls online with warped perspectives or making strange comments, I genuinely get angry. I repeatedly remind myself not to engage with trolls, as it only harms my well-being. However, I can't help it! Really can't help it! Now I'm wondering if entering middle age truly brings significant emotional changes. I want to control this change, but I feel powerless, only able to watch as things continue to worsen bit by bit. |
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